Freedom

Gia is still miserably sick. She was clingy and crabby all day yesterday. For the first time in a very long time, I was looking forward to a baseball game. I had to miss Tommy's double-header but Leo was going to come home after so I could go to Nico's game. I could not wait to sit in my old blue chair and actually watch the game while talking to friends I haven't been able to see in awhile. The game started at 5 (Tommy and Nico played at the same field) and I got a text from Leo that read, Nico is pitching now. I am just going to see him bat and then I'll come. What?? The whole point is for ME to see him play. I was tired of getting updates on what he was doing at his games. I wanted to see for myself. I texted him to hurry and waited on edge knowing that freedom was coming soon. Knowing it was coming gave me all the patience in the world when Gia would cry that she wanted to be held and even then, still cried. Leo finally came home and I spouted off what Gia needed and where Belle was and left. Ahhhh....for even the short ride over, it was nice listening to the radio instead of the Gia CD that says her name 150 times. I got there in the 5th inning which was disappointing to have missed that much but one of the best feelings in the world is when your 13 year old son looks around and his eyes fall on you and his whole face lights up. I smiled and gave him the thumbs up and he gave me a smile and a head nod. It made me wonder if, when he has other games and says for me not to worry about missing it, he is bummed that I am not there. For the two innings I was there I saw him make a great catch at right field and hit twice, one of which was a line drive to left field. The icing on the cake is that they won. Another great feeling is when your 13 year old comes up to you after the game and hugs and kisses you in front of his friends. I know that will probably change so I am enjoying every moment that he still does that.

After the game came the real freedom. Finally I was able to go to dinner and eat food that wasn't chocolate and strawberries or nachos. There was so much talk about the world ending yesterday and in light of that, I ate like it was. Leo gets to spend so much time with our friends after games and it was nice that on top of eating great food, I was finally able to catch up with friends. I even had a margarita and it was freaking delicious! Today the freedom will continue in that I am going to church (hopefully the walls won't fall in when I step foot in there) and the store before Nico's game that Leo gets to go to (it absolutely killed him to miss Nico's game yesterday). No one is up yet so I don't know what the status is on who feels okay and who feels sick. I bet you can all guess what I am going to pray for while I am church.