Wisconsin Dells: Chula Vista With the Family

When we were younger, we always went to Chula Vista with my family. With five kids and a stay at home mom, it was like our Disney World. We used to go with my grandparents and my aunt and her family. Some of the best memories were made there. I wish I could say the same for this trip. I'm sure my family thinks I am on the brink of a nervous breakdown and they aren't that far off. Tommy was miserable. He slept all of Sunday and Monday morning. I've seen most 90 year old men walk faster than Tommy could walk. It seemed like it was more than just soreness from the waterpark. I called the doctor and God love our nurse. She called in an antibiotic and after a two doses, he was fine. Just as Tommy was feeling fine, Gia decided to wake up at 2am and stay awake. She cried off and on from 2 until about 6. She finally fell asleep and suddenly my sister burst in the room and said, "We can't find Belle!" Panicked I ran to my room and saw Belle sleeping in the bed. They thought it was Tommy and didn't know that he went golfing with all the guys. Gia was up then and Belle left for breakfast. I gave Gia a bottle (never going to be weaned) and put her back down and fell asleep myself. I woke up to Isabella with a fever and a visitor that came a week early, not really prepared for either. So back to Walgreens I went. Leo promised I'd get a break (I just wanted to listen to my iPod, lay out in the sun and write in my book) when he got back from golf but Gia was making it really difficult. She wouldn't stay with him so I ended up taking her to the pool.  Belle cried for me to stay with her so we compromised and I only went out for an hour to lay out. I tried to write but was too stressed.  Am I a bad mom that I was bummed to not get more time out at the pool?

The whole vacation was stressful and I was very afraid that my family was ruining it for the others. No one made me feel that way. They were very understanding about the whole thing but I had two sick kids and a baby that was not really fun to be around.  How could it not be one huge buzz kill? I just wanted to go home but there was just as much drama going on at home. I have enough drama within the walls of my own house, I don't need anymore or anyone else's. It's not a good feeling to have people mad at me and no matter how hard I try, someone is not happy. Either my kids aren't happy, family isn't happy, or friends aren't happy. Everyone else gets to shut down, not answer their phones, or not be found but I never seem to be able to. Well, I am crawling under a rock for awhile because it is all too much. Maybe I'll be like those writers that become hermits and never leave their houses. Maybe I'll finally finish editing my one book and I'll finally finish writing the other one. Maybe I'll be like that one guy that wanted to prove he could survive without leaving the house as long as he had his computer. Hmmm...avoid all drama....spend days writing....buy things online...sounds pretty good to me.

On a side note: I took Tommy and Belle to the doctor and he thinks that Belle has a combination of 5th's disease and hand, foot and mouth. He looked in my mouth and thinks I might have the same virus which was actually good news for me since my dentist wanted to send me to an oral surgeon for a biopsy. I made a joke that maybe that is why I have been in such a funk lately (it was a joke because I have four kids who have been sick on and off for months now, two have CF, one is a toddler, Leo has dropped the ball on a few important things and vacation was a bust...those are reason enough for the funk) and he asked me a few more questions and then said he thinks something else might be going on so he is sending me for blood work (see what I mean about drama). Last night Gia went to bed with the beginnings of the same kind of rash that Belle has and today she woke up on fire. She went right back to bed which isn't a good sign of what lies ahead for the rest of the day or weekend.